GRADUATION '11

Well, I'm just gonna write down what happened while I still remember :)

Graduation was...well...i don't really know how to really describe it .________. . What an opening huh? Lol. I remembered standing outside the dewan and being sweaty. I swear I was profusing like a fat pig. But, what to do laa? Yes, and I regretted not bringing my camera, since everyone brought theirs eventhough we're not allowed to bring one. Phfft. What a bummer . Not to worry, I still managed to take some pictures of me and my friends, with solution of pinjam-ing someone's camera.

Mum didn't come. Why? And she answered just because. So terpaksa accept *sigh. But she promised to come on my real graduation in uni later :)

I bet noone knows this, but i nearly cried at the end of the ceremony. Damn, i tried really hard holding my tears back. Luckily, not one tear drop. I'm really gonna miss school. Especially, those I'm very close with. They were colors in my life. From this bright pink to pitch black. Those are actually what i look forward coming to school, and without them, seriously I could ponteng for the whole year.

Looking back, the journey throughout this year, I am bravely admitting that I had done wrong doings to some people, in specific. And from the bottom of my heart, I'm so sorry. Never intend to hurt your feelings neither to even make you feel like a sh*t. Hope apology's accepted :'(

 Well that's it I guess. It's a wrap for the year 2011. Now for some quality time with studies till SPM *11 days counting!

Mhm

Even when I try my hardest to dress up, I can never WOW you, can I? *sigh

Bak kata dia ;

Is I catch a grenade for you, throw my hand on a blade for you, I'd jump in front of a train for you,

 I would go through all this pain, take a bullet straight trough my brain, yes I would die for you baby,

but you won't do the same

-Bruno Mars

Macam so true

Trials are around , and I'm really not ready for it :/

0930 am

30 minutes time till Bio with Hannim

So yeah,

It's been quite a while i guess

SPM ;

you're the reason i'm not blogging anymore -.-'

My compass when I'm lost

From top; Nik Asrar, Nik Arif, Nik Aqram

Thanks for making my holiday meaningful. Hee. Love you guys!

Mister Amazing

Awwh glad you and I are still friends, even after what happened. 

You make me smile :)

Yeahh you

I'm declaring this a ghost blog. Because you know what I've been abondaning my bloggie for a very loooooooooong time. Reasons? I HATE it when people don't get what I really meant when I post something on my blog. That's why even my birthday wasn't written in this blog.

F@#k, straight to the point. I hate myself for doing that to you boy. I'm so sorry. My mind is all messed up. I'm just so S O R R Y. Now go hate me all you want.

Ahmad Eirfan Kamarudin

In the middle, is my brother Eirfan.

He went to SASER on the 7th of Jan.

And, I Miss Him. A lot :'(

Raif :)

I trained my little 3 years old cousin to called me eza. But no matter how hard he tried he could only called me Eja. Maybe Z was too alien like for him. Ye laa, alphabet last. Hehe. So anyway, it's always Eja all the time. He's at his utmost cutest when he says my name :')

He was at my place for just one day because my aunt had something going on here. The day after, they went back to my grandmother's place. Once they arrived, my aunt called my mum suddenly, saying that baby Raif kept crying and kept saying Eja. I guess, he missed me already? 

I swear I could never stop smiling. Aww. Such a darling! 

Why oh why

Once upon an evening, I started counting from June onwards, July, August, Sept... 

And I whispered to myself 

If still together mesti dah 3 years 8 months, whoa. 

Unfortunately, everyone terdengar. So my bad. 

Teacher was smiling so I said ;

Tak la teacher, dia probrably dah move on and bnyk lagi girls out there. Heh

And teacher said, 

Honestly Eza, guys are all the same. 

That kept me quiet.

-The End-

Once my patrick

If you love someone, let them go

If they return to you, it was meant to be

If they don't, their love was never yours to begin with

He never returned. So, I guess he moved on, and so should I. I'm happy if he is happy. And for that reason, i stopped crying. I mean, that's the whole point of love kann? Let your loved ones be happy for no matter what , when , or with who they are with . There's no point looking back because I know that can never happen again. And so, everyday, I'm looking forward to live my life, without him but with memories of him. 

He is not mine to love anymore. I learnt to accept that.

Accounts with Teacher Kuhan

Me Teacher

Okay Eza, u buy things from me. So i owe u, or u owe me?

You owe me!

Ha? I sell it to then I also hutang u ah? Mampus la mcmni. Haha

ohhhh, HAHAHAHHAAH silap

Adoi, sumpah tak tahan! XD

immakoreanfreak, yes! :)

♥ 

It's MONDAY people!

Kamal and I were the master of ceremonies for today's Perhimpunan. It was err, o k a y to us though we received lots of mixed comments. Haha. It was nerve wrecking, i tell you! Kamal started the intro, and he was doing well, push aside that he stuttered one or two of the teacher's name. The thing that got me smiling was when I looked at the script and saw his hand trembling like mad. Ahah. Yeah, I did told him to calm down and take a couple of deep breathe. Overall, Arief said it was okay, so okay laa. But contradict to my non-prefect friends who were sitting. Lol, they said i mumble :(. But we did it, so dah la. Haha. We did it like so spontaneously, no practice, so we should be praised. HAHA.

And now, people are labelling me as MC -.-

Oh and bytheway, koko was fun. I had my people under AJK HEM for Kelab Kewartawanan. After begging, I now have like 10 people under me? Aha. I came up randomly for the group motto like Bertaraf Dunia, Ranking Pertama. Haha. We laughed our ass out :D

Ohhhhhhhhhhh, and know what, this girl, a junior, said that I look like one of those korean singers. I take that as a compliment! Aww, im so proud of myself. Haha. I smiled all the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay through koko. Hihi

WHAT A DAY (':

Fishy

Thanks to you, Neuton Star Collision is stuck in my mind.


I was searching, you were on a mission

Damn. Hahah

Saser O:

Eirfan got a place in boarding school. He's actually leaving. My devil-ish, psychotic, sehati-sejiwa, the-one-who-stayed-by-my-side is leaving soon. Im gonna miss you bro :'(

2011

It's been one hell of an introduction this year. But I've made it through, literally. And to my family there, it's really my fault to leave without saying goodbye, so iamsorry. I was glad I could talk it over and made u guys understand :)

So here I am back in BJ. Back to my friends which I've known for 6-10 years. I received lots of mixed emotion when I was there at the first day of school. Like;

-eh asal datang balik?

-eza, taknak jadi pengawas?

-omg!

-rindu aku la ni, sbb tu dtg balik kann

& so much so I can't remember. Hee

And yeahhh, I'm a prefect now. Thank god, Cikgu Saiful bagi. Aisyah&Arief, you guys really scared the shit out of me! Thanks a lot for pranking. I'll get back to u later yeah? Hahah. Wearing a blue uniform means i could get closer to Amirah&Liana, two of my darlings. Hehe. 

Oh bytheway, I'm in Mercury. Cikgu said I can't change my rumah sukan -.-. That's so sad you know, because earth was my home for 3 years. I even cheered for them in 2009, look where I am now. *sigh, but at least i have Abin&Reha and not to forget Tiha. Yeay for them. 

5 Epsilon. That's my class. Sitting behind ME is Hannim, sitting beside Hannim is Usman, sitting beside Usman is Syamim, sitting infront of Syamim is Liana, sitting beside Liana is Elora, sitting beside Elora is ME. If somehow you don't get what I'm saying, visit my class laa okay? Haha

I don't really know what else to say, but I'll try to keep my blog updated.  

Oh oh this is Cikgu Isyraf(or however his name is spelled), my physics teacher's ringtone. Hahah.