Again

I believe in everything happens for a reason :(

Between 2

I'm having a dilemma here. Some of you might know about this and some of you might not. The problem is now, I can't just abandon one of my family just like that.

This is gonna be hard.

Goodbye.

Don't leave me

Bro, you suck! Haha. Kidding la. I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee you. And I don't ever want you to leave me and go to boarding school next year. You're the reason I kept smiling even in the worst situation. Hey, I know you're not the serious type of person, but you know, you'd be there when I'm down and try to cheer me up with your stupid jokes. Or sometimes, shockingly giving me advices. Like whoa. And that was the only time I wanted my old bro back. Joking. It helped. Thank youu :)

We share so many things together. Thus, making you my ultimate asshole partner. Hahah. As much as I want you to go to boarding school, somehow I'm always hoping that you'd change your mind about it.

Sidekick LX

First impression, I think this phone is cool. Gonna ask dad to check it out :P

Ayam

Okay so we're in the car and there was this chicken crossing the road. So this was what happened;

Me: Eh tu chicken kannnnnn?

Mum: Tak la, tu rooster.

Me: OH, so chicken is for the girl is it?

Mum: Tu hen la.

Me: Oh, ha'a. Lupa. So chicken is in general la kann?

Mum: *keeps driving*

Me: Okay now I'm talking alone -.-

HAHAH, apa ni. I failed the chicken test. Officially! Haha.

Thanks big guy

IM ACTUALLY SMILING! HAHA, THANK YOU :)

*no no, this is not what happen because of the post below. 

Mind you, I haven't gone nuts! I'm smiling, for real! :)

Cause of death

Tear and rip my body apart. Take out my heart and immerse it in a saturated acid or slice it into tiny million pieces.  Oh wait, take my heart, then burn it. Take a picture of it as well. Because I wanna always picture it as how I was suffering and left me with no feelings. Even better, just put a bullet in my head. Straight to my brain and pass through the part of the brain which stored all my happy times. Let me forget all the memories I had. It's worth leaving the memories rather than dragging it all my life. If I'd erase it all, then there would never be 'what ifs', wouldn't it now?

In a story/drama/movies, I never always like happy ending. Unless, it really is a genuine one. You know how the happy couples got married. And next thing you know, the second part of the story went something like a divorce or a separation or suddenly one of them died of cancer. DEPRESSING. This fairytale of mine is not going to last long. I know that now. It's driving me crazy. I smile and laughed with my friends just to realize how nothing changes. I was still being the same probably like some serial killer crazy for killing. Only the situation for me, to still loving him, to want him to stay, to never let him go.

There is no point I'm writing this down. So much for your happy ending eza. 

Just let go.

It'll never end

Gonna watch hockey to create a diversion from what I long the most.

A support I needed

Thks Mora. 

For what you said, 

Which did in a way lifted up my spirit, 

Love you <3

You're in my head

Now I can't even do addition and subtraction properly *sigh

The day, I thought which would never come,

He never reply my messages. Never answer my calls. Something's wrong I whispered to myself. The electricity was cut off today for a short period, so I laid there by the window. To catch the breeze when the wind blows. The surrounding was pretty quiet, I barely hear a thing only the azan echoing. This exact moment was when I felt something bad is going to happen between me and him.

I tried to shut my eyes. I grew tired of the pessimistic voice inside my head and fell asleep. As soon as I opened my eyes, I dialed his number hoping he would answer. But no, noone answered. Shortly after that, I received a text message saying "call me". So I called him. He said;

1.I need to see you

2.This evening

3.It's about us

As simple as that. But I can't go because mum's schedule is hectic enough to make time to even send me. But I managed to catch a slight hint that it's about the break-up part. Or maybe I'm just being paranoid, Idk. But definitely, something. I'll never know, untill I meet him, sometime later.

:(

And I won't forget you
I can't forget you
And the hardest thing i've done is have to live without you
And i wonder why we both walked away
I'm lost without you,still crazy for you
Just turn around,come back because your smile is overdue
And I miss you 


Tyler Ward-The hardest thing

Screw the post below

I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU :)

When it comes tumbling down,

I know that we were suppose to be. I know that we should. But seeing us now, i don't think we would get back together. U have your issues with me and likewise. I'm trying to be optimistic here, I tried. I mean, it's gotten to the worst part that i'm afraid we no longer have feelings for each other. Frightened, over the 'iloveyou's' you said just because of the period we've been together.

These past weeks, ahhh, I don't even know where to start. I wish things like this never happened. I'm not posting this to say that I'm guilty and you're at fault. No, not at all. I'm doing my heart a lil bit of favour to let the pain out. By writing. Hey, I know you suffer too. Wait, before I forget, you can always throw it away. The way you said thanks, I know it's effing meaningless. I'm sorry for ruining yesterday's night which was suppose to be special.

I wish, I just wish, there's still hope for us.

Because I Love You, never stop failing to.

Happy Birthday Syml

After the screaming/fighting/argument? I'm still cool

But wait, just so you know, you still have my heart






& Keep it, because it's always yours,
I Love You

Green's Open House ,

I don't know about you guys who attended, but I had fuuuuuun ♥

Ahmad Eimran Kamarudin

Oh yeah, EIMRAN sorry, kak long wish lambat for your birthday semalam :(

♥

A B C D E Z A

I feel v-e-r-y lazy to get my ass up and finish my school homeworks. Plus, my accounts kerja kursus has a slight defect with ONLY one page missing but yet I am postponing my assignment. Mum kept reminding me of how I'm being extremely relax of the FINALS. Yes, I think Ive been taking it easy on my studies since that Raya. Lazy, lazy, lazy. Haha. Well, I guess I have to keep myself back on track. So this is a note to myself;

STOP BLOGGING & START STUDYING!

you have a mission to complete :D